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Home-School Hesitation

Wednesday, March 12, 2014

I am never going to home-school
It's just not for me
I'm not patient enough
I'm not smart enough
I'm not balanced enough

I love my kids
All-them, All-day, All-the-time?
I hear ya 

And then there's the other thing we all think and just don't say out loud
Weird - defined as odd, uncanny, bizarre
Being "that family" 
With "those kids" 

But here I am Reviewing my 28 week lesson plan
And planning out week 29, 30, 31 and into the summer
Not as organized or balanced as I hope to be
Different, even a bit weird
And Growing

I've discovered more guilt and overwhelming grace than I ever imagine possible in this place
I have a love of History that never before existed
And I'm re-learning so many things
I'm still a terrible speller and get to work through that inherited trait with my seven year old
We have space issues and noise issues to work through
But we get to do it together

I still have questions

If you're thinking about home school here's where I started:
- "God if you want me to homeschool please make it overtly clear, close all other doors and show me what you want from me"
Truth - it was not my plan to ever homeschool.
But He did what I asked, locked tight all doors, except for the one labeled homeschool, and spoke into me what He wanted.

- Find someone you trust, and talk it through
- Surround yourselves with other mom's, ones that have made it work, or are working on it, and glean from them

The World Wide Web
- Home School Legal Defense Association
- Midwest Parent Educators

- A Holy Experience
- Confessions of a Homeschooler
-Weird, Unsocialized Homeschoolers
*I could go on and on...see this article listing the top 25 homeschooling blogs

Homeschool Conferences
- Coming This April to the Kansas City Area

And then take a walk through your local Christian Book Store or a virtual one through the isles of and make some curriculum decisions.

I never imagined being in this place
But I am thankful
This is the place I am

A Day In The LIFE...

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